2009s gonna be crap, whats their to look forward to now?

Dads cleared off with some tart! Mums in the nick, got arrested few months bakk, dont reely wanna go into it, but lets just say shes not gonna be out for a long time! Im staying with my older brothers Joe & Rhys right now, its not too bad, but its crowded coz ive got two younger sisters Megan&Jessica, and its only a flat? I just split up with my boyfriend of 2 years, yeh ino im only 14, but i loved him, theres just too much going on rite now! My grandad died almost a year ago now, but its still hard yino ? To top it off, my older sister Charlene has 3 kids, Amelie, Jordan and Steven. Steven was 7 months, just died from cot death a few weeks ago! I hate my life so much rite now, new year new start people keep saying, but nothings changing! I still feel the same way as i did yesterday, and the day before! Nothings gonna change coz its a new year! I feel so crap right now? Talking to people doesnt help, not even family & friends, people hear what im sayin, but their not actually listenin? Any advice ? x